My car story.

Every since the first day i started driving (officially/unofficially) I've never seen myself having the fear of being on the road at all.

About 2 weeks back, as I was driving home from work on a rainy day, some guy crashed into my car. I was at a very poor mental state and was in no mood to negotiate or anything. I would like for the guy to shut up, let me go home and I'll fix my own car (because he was winding as hell). Every since that day, I feel damn stressed out when I drive. WHY STRESS? because I'm afraid that people would crash into me. PARANOIA much.

Then now, I'm having nightmares about people crashing into me. 2 nights omg. I think this is like post-partum stress or some shit like that. VERY BAD.

Just yesterday, while I was on my way to work, I knocked into a motorcycle. I thought it was  HUGEEE collission and that the woman was gonna fall on her ass. But in turn, we looked at each other, then she sped on. WTF MOMENT TTM. My heart was beating so fast I thought I was gonna die. I continued driving the next 20 minutes in the car in total silence. Even my mind was silenced.

These two incidences got me thinking. Am I a safe driver? I have NEVER doubted my driving skills EVER. until now. I keep telling myself that it could be others' negligence. and that I should just chill.

NGEH. People who know me well would know that I cannot chill. HAHAHA.

Random rant.