Very often misunderstood.

People can easily misunderstand and we can easily be misunderstood.

The problem? I feel that when I wholeheartedly treat someone as a close friend, I end up unhappy. Is it because of the fact that I expect to be treated in a certain way by a certain someone and when i don't get it, i feel unhappy. Unhappy isn't the exact feeling, it's a feeling like as if you are not appreciated or in a way you feel cheated.

Early this year, I told myself, "treat others the way you want them to treat you". I have to say, I DOESN'T work this way. Many are just way too ignorant. They think that they DESERVE that treatment. Well I have to tell you here. YOU DON'T DESERVE ANY FUCKING THING. I'm simply being nice because I want to and I actually like you as a friend and would like to help out. What did I get in the end? I FEEL FUCKING USED. It has happened many times, I keep telling myself that 'oh things will be different next time.. bla bla bla'.

You might say, "So unhappy don't help lah!". I know. First of all, I WANT TO because that person is a person I consider a close friend. Someone that I confidED in, someone I trust. Secondly, it wouldn't be nice to turn a friend down. Thirdly, people would say I'm a selfish person.

The situation is like when you have flu, you use a handkerchief to blow your nose. After doing so, you 'fold fold fold' (to hide the mucus) then dump it into your pocket of dunno which jacket (that you were wearing at that moment). You go home and then forgets about it. You'd never be bothered to find that handkerchief because you have many other handkerchiefs unless other handkerchiefs are used and you have no choice. I am the mucus covered handkerchief and a friend is the person with the flu. FUCK.

I just want you to know that I'm not trying to judge you or characterize you. I just want to be your friend. I hope you know that my intention is just that.

If you think that it's a nuisance that I want the best for you (because I want you to live longer), please tell me to stop.